| why do i have such poor judgment?
why do i allow my impulses to rule my life?
why am i the way i am and how can i change?
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| i'm itching again.
i'm feeling restless and i want nothing but to break out of the confines of the proverbial cage i find myself in. i'm sick with the all-too-real walls and borders i find myself enclosed within.
i'm too much for anyone to handle, its always the case. how long until this one realizes it?
i just want freedom in every sense of the word. i want to do what i please when i please and have nothing to tie me down. i used to think that growing up would mean more freedom when in reality its just different freedoms that always come with a cost. and the cost is responsibility.
for awhile the restlessness laid in wait; it was calm and i was able to move about my "life" and do my homework, go about the usual things in high school, but it has been silent too long.
how long will i be plagued by this restlessness this time? how many fits will it cause? will it combine with all of the other confusion i have and make me a mess once again?
why is everything so god damned complicated. my own head is a mystery to me.
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| it's turning out to be a good day, anyway.
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| lksjdkfl
i have nothing done!
i left the math packet in school. i'm waiting for chapter 24 from someone else tomorrow. i finished one french article and started my english essay and i'm waiting on an email from my lifeline person as well.
so tomorrow in school i'm going to have to get 24 AND the math packet, and hope i can get it all done by the time those classes take place. awesome.
and i can't get anything else done tonight because i'm going to adem's. and i'm happy about that but i'm so stressed out im probably just going to think about everything i dont have done the whole time, and i'm overtired but i'll end up staying up late working on other things as well.
fuck.
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