i'm itching again.
i'm feeling restless and i want nothing but to break out of the confines of the proverbial cage i find myself in. i'm sick with the all-too-real walls and borders i find myself enclosed within.
i'm too much for anyone to handle, its always the case. how long until this one realizes it?
i just want freedom in every sense of the word. i want to do what i please when i please and have nothing to tie me down. i used to think that growing up would mean more freedom when in reality its just different freedoms that always come with a cost. and the cost is responsibility.
for awhile the restlessness laid in wait; it was calm and i was able to move about my "life" and do my homework, go about the usual things in high school, but it has been silent too long.
how long will i be plagued by this restlessness this time? how many fits will it cause? will it combine with all of the other confusion i have and make me a mess once again?
why is everything so god damned complicated. my own head is a mystery to me.