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Saturday, January 26, 2008

Sat, 26 Jan 2008 17:03:46 GMT

moved.

here.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Fri, 25 Jan 2008 18:47:48 GMT

why do i have such poor judgment?
why do i allow my impulses to rule my life?
why am i the way i am and how can i change?

Monday, January 21, 2008

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 21:21:33 GMT

i'm itching again.
i'm feeling restless and i want nothing but to break out of the confines of the proverbial cage i find myself in. i'm sick with the all-too-real walls and borders i find myself enclosed within.
i'm too much for anyone to handle, its always the case. how long until this one realizes it?
i just want freedom in every sense of the word. i want to do what i please when i please and have nothing to tie me down. i used to think that growing up would mean more freedom when in reality its just different freedoms that always come with a cost. and the cost is responsibility.
for awhile the restlessness laid in wait; it was calm and i was able to move about my "life" and do my homework, go about the usual things in high school, but it has been silent too long.
how long will i be plagued by this restlessness this time? how many fits will it cause? will it combine with all of the other confusion i have and make me a mess once again?
why is everything so god damned complicated. my own head is a mystery to me.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Sun, 20 Jan 2008 03:39:25 GMT

it's turning out to be a good day, anyway.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 20:41:21 GMT

lksjdkfl
i have nothing done!
i left the math packet in school. i'm waiting for chapter 24 from someone else tomorrow. i finished one french article and started my english essay and i'm waiting on an email from my lifeline person as well.
so tomorrow in school i'm going to have to get 24 AND the math packet, and hope i can get it all done by the time those classes take place. awesome.
and i can't get anything else done tonight because i'm going to adem's. and i'm happy about that but i'm so stressed out im probably just going to think about everything i dont have done the whole time, and i'm overtired but i'll end up staying up late working on other things as well.
fuck.

Friday, January 11, 2008

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 20:49:56 GMT

THIS WEEKEND:
- 3 french articles
- lifeline
- a-f in chapters 24 [and 25]
- old math midterm practice
- english essay
- extended essay research

TONIGHT:
- 1 french article
- any lifeline possible
- extended essay research
- work on english essay

BRING TO THE MEET:
- math hw
- extended essay stuff
- 1 french article

SUNDAY, PRE-ADEM:
- any lifeline possible
- 1 french article, if possible
- a-f in chapter 24

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 01:00:59 GMT

tuesday night:
math
french-one article
+additional hw

wednesday night:
rwb stuff
+additional hw

thursday night:
math
one french article
+additional hw

weekend:
lifeline project!
french portfolio!

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 22:37:35 GMT

track
french portfolio
art [lifeline project especially]
extended essay
cas hours
midterms

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 15:16:42 GMT

i have a new boyfriendd.
he's lovely =]

track meet yesterday went on forever.
i ran the 1500 and did okay..ish..kind of..
whateverr.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 15:54:20 GMT

2007 roundup!

January:
Hung out with Brittany, Brandon, Magnus; got Brittany and Brandon together in the previous December/this January. At the end, started talking to/being interested in Will. Indoor track ends.

February:
talking with Will. Ridiculous number of snow days. He asks me out. New couple bliss.

March:
New couple Bliss. Few doubts.

April:
some doubts. Still couple-y bliss.

May:
some doubts. Still couple-y bliss. Caroline and Zack broke up.

June:
Ball. Should've dumped him when I thought of it. Exams, graduation, i start freaking about where things are going in all of my life.

July:
Some awesome days. Drew's grad party, Caroline's party, 4th of july. Field hockey camp at the end. Things with will were "perfect" when we were together. sucked otherwise. he didn't pay enough attention to me.

August:
Crying too often. field hockey preseason started. We spent loads of money to put a gift together for will. he goes to college.

September:
School starts. crying hits a maximum. Will and I break up. I try to graduate early, but my favorite teachers say otherwise. Andy and Annie's wedding the week after we break up.

October:
still sulking over will. Caroline wants to set me up with Pat. things with "boy-with-girlfriend" start. Halloween.

November:
Caroline and Will (II) start going out. Taylor and Zack start going out. My birthday. Will (I) starts dating whore. Things with "boy-with-girlfriend" continue; i end it near the end of november. Thanksgiving. Fightish with Caroline. Indoor track starts.

December:
Caroline unhappy with me friends with Will (II) but gets over it. Things go from high drama to lull. Indoor track continues. Maxine hates me again. I meet Blake and Adem. Start getting to know Adem over the last few days of break.